2nd baby

haiz.... so long din write my blog liao.... actually i dunno wat to write....

ok la, i will begin with my 2nd pregnancy. 2nd pregnancy is unexpected to me and my hubby, and we dun dare to tell my MIL yet, and i am worry about my confinement as if we hired confinement lady, it is so expensive and need to use up almost $4k, but if i order confinement foods only, nobody look after the baby for me for the 1st week.....haiz...so many things to think.....really is no money no talk!!!!!

I thinking of asking MIL to help but i dun think she will help, i also scare she wont want to look after my baby for me..... not only i dun dare to tell MIL, my hubby also scare until now he dun dare to inform his mum!!!

I heard my friend story, she told me she also got baby and going to give birth this year, at 1st she and her hubby also unexpected for this child and plan to abort when the baby is 2months in the womb, they already plan the date with the doctor for abortion. Lucky that before few days of abortion, her hubby went to see a master to ask for his career den the master asked him whether he got good news to share with him? He told the master his wife just pregnant and thinking of abortion a few days time. The master told them dun do anything wrong, as this is gift from the god and dun destroy  it!! Then they thought it over, and think that the master is right, so they give up their plan.

Although i din think of abortion, but after listen to what my friend told me, why i din think of abortion cos i afraid of pain and i dun want to hurt the baby, the baby is not in the wrong in the 1st place. If i really went for abortion i will regret forever and will not forgive myself!!! I must hold on, and bring up my 2 kids, no matter how badly our finance is!!!

Enough of all these things, i will talk about the process about this pregnancy now. Now is about 2months +, everyday after meals in the afternoon and night, i will vomit out all the foods i eat, so wasted..... i cannot go to the toilet, wherever i see the toilet bowl, i will feel like vomit..... this is more serious den the 1st pregnant. I am becoming more and more moody, i dun like to see Jovian do things which i hate, i will scream at her and beat her up, and she dun like to follow me anymore, she will stick to her daddy more, and ask her daddy to carry her whenever we go shopping. She will also ask her daddy to make her sleep or accompany her to bed to patch her sleep. When going to bath, she wants her daddy to bath for her. This way also good la, i dun need to waste my time on her, and i can rest more and do my housework.

Lucky my hubby will learn how to bath Jovian and make her sleep as he also wants to sleep early himself. But he also become impatiently nowadays as Jovian become more and more naughty after she went to childcare.

I really hope hubby will help me more, but i think he also lazy after long hours of work....

That all, will update again....