Sian!!!!

I really hate my life!!! I so disappointed in my married!!! Y I married this kind of guy???

I really think of running away from this home but think of my kids, I dun dare to do it... I also dunno where can I go...

Now I got 2nd child, I cnt think of divorce yet, must wait until I give birth and need to settle many things...

Divorce is the last choice, I giving him many chance but he din treasure it.. He keep making me disappointed... I so tired of staying with him anymore!!! But wat can I do?

I also lazy to talk to him, whenever he came back Hm from work, he will release his stress on us by scolding us!!! Everybody also got stress, y cnt he came back saw us, and give a happy face... I also very stress on many things but I wnt release stress on him. So now I seldom wants to talk much to him, mostly is he do the talking.... I feel so tired talking to him, cos will end up quarreling...

Every husband will rush Hm aft work to see their belove family but not him!!! He will go drink with his colleague aft work or after reach Hm, he will go to kopi shop to drink!!! Leave Jovian under my care, I got so many things to do, how to play with Jovian.. I only wants him to stay at Hm to accompany Jovian but he cnt do it!

Last time, he a gd husband and daddy, aft reach Hm, he will play with Jovian but now NO, he will only scold her!!!

After he change his work job, he completely a change person, i hate his colleague, everytime ask him go to drink!!!

The most stupid things is I pregnant with 2nd child!!! I can only take care of myself and Jovian and dun think so much to make myself so depress... I can only accept it as this is my life...


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